I am stuck in the belief that I am somehow not good enough. Some recent experiences have triggered old beliefs that I have projected onto my current life. I feel like I am a teenager again, living through some unpleasant experiences concerning personal relationships. I know of course that this is not my current reality and still, it is so easy to get caught up in the all encompassing negativity that seems to pick out all the doubtful moments and turn them into big black heavy facts. I have just “parked” those feelings in my diary for now, not sure yet how they could best be approached. Possibly speaking with those concerned could help in order to get to the bottom of the triggers and reassure myself that I have a distorted view of reality. I just find it scary to let those feelings resurface and show myself so vulnerable. What if they simply don’t understand? Or rather, accept that I feel this way?

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